My sister said something, and it struck a chord.

you know what 2006 looks like to me?

a big question mark.

because i don't get it. and i just don't. i'm left bitter, and beaten, and spent. and wasted. and apathetic. and hateful. and jaded. and alone. and so many things... so so many things that i believed in are gone forever.

but...

i'm empowered. i'm free. i'm lost in a sea of beauty, where you just sit and forget the questions and admire life and it's sheer disregard for us. there is a clear plan that it follows, and i feel like we're just along for the ride. i'm left to realize my potential for the first time. i have oppurtunity. i have the promise of a new year. i have the promise of learning from my mistakes. i have a new out look on life.

i have a new road in front of me... and i'm tempted to just start running.

but i don't know.



i feel like in august, we all took a bite of the fruit of the knowledge of good and evil.

i feel like in september, we were the tower of babel.

and the rest... i don't know.